"Remember, God will never give you more than you can handle. People repeat this frequently. I heard it when I was growing up and I hear it now. It is meant to be a source of encouragement, and it would be if I believed it were true. But I don't.
I believe that God totally, absolutely, intentionally gives us more than we can handle. Because this is when we surrender to Him, and he takes over, proving himself by doing the impossible in our lives."
I've been listening to the above named audio book while spending many hours in bed the past weeks. I have time and time and time again taken one health step forward only to be sent six or more steps backward in this health quest of mine. During the past fall and early winter, I had seen some progress in the right direction for the first time in a very long time. Now, I have slipped back gigantically, and it is so difficult. So many symptoms have heightened with a vengance. I understand the "healing crisis" concept (I hope that is what this is), but in the midst of it, it does not seem like a good thing.
I feel that daily I deal with more than I can handle - even during the small improvement time - and now, this extra suffering seems crushing. I so want to do things and go places and have energy. I long to feel well and not have to work so hard at being cheerful.
So, rather than give you a list of symptoms, I thought I would give you a list of some prayer requests. Please pray for:
*my heart to praise God as I remind myself of who he is
*my heart to thank God for the miriad blessings I have been given by Him
*me to be possitive and not negative in my speech
*God to perform the healing both my heart and body need
*me to have the will to continue doing the hard things to get well
*the long list of symptoms to be taken care of by God's healing power e.g. the symptom that is literally screaming at me right now - incessant/ nerve wracking, loud tinnitus
*me to be the wife and mother my family needs while trying to rest and take care of my body (sometimes I have no choice - my body demands I do nothing but rest)
*God's priorities to be clear and for me to follow them and give up all else
Ellen
